forgiving

OK, so I was thinking of horrible ways I could try and get back at Mr. perverted scammer, I even sent a very nasty letter to the website itself (www.thehairtrader.com) to inform them or how unhelpful they were and how more steps should have been taken by them to inform the public of said scams and because they didn't take steps to prevent scams and didn't even e-mail me back till about 3 days after I e-mailed them about the suspicious activities and the guy had already dashed that I was certain the whole site was a scam and was going to make sure everybody who I coudl get the word to would know how I felt. I left a post on the site to others like me who were honest trustworthy people not to use the site (which I very seldom do, ok maybe this is the 1st or 2nd time ever).

While I was scheming I even e-mailed thehairhunter57@yahoo.com and mentioned how we hadn't tried to go and get the money yet because we wanted to finish the shave for him and how we were very shocked to see that he logged off so quickly before the shave was finished---I think I even mentioned exposing my breasts in the video and offered to sell him a copy of the DVD.

Either way I haven't heard back from either thehairhunter57@yahoo.com or the elusive Dave Black (AKA clippersman59) but feel that it doesn't matter now, as much as I would love to waste his time sending him all sorts of spam and junk I realize that would only waste more of my time and that is the last thing I want to do, so I will forgive him, it may take a while but I am sure I can find it in my heart to do.

I just receved another e-mail from thehairtrader.com to ensure to me that it wasn't a scam, and to say they did everything in their power to prevent this type of thing, but unfortunately they didn't, but that I forgive them also, and that they could remove my listing cause I could never trust anybody from that site anyways.

The funny thing is that I find it hard to forgive the little things like this, I really do, now had he done something super horrible than I usually can forgive it faster for some reason, I guess that is because for some reason I feel if I don't fogive them one day I may be stuck in Hell with them and they would be doing that mean horrible thing over and over again because that would truly make it hell, and the little things I just kind of put on the back burner and figure one day their forgiveness will come---

what do you find hardest about forgiving?